And I don't know how I am going to figure out the answers, or if I am ever going to find out the answer, but what the fuck listing them couldn't hurt:

1. Why did I even start the NG Guide?

2. Why do I even put up with this miserable workload?

3. Why am I not like the average user on the site? Who posts, watches flashes, be a jackass, etc?

4. What did I do where everything went wrong?

5. Why is it that everyday I view the BBS I hate it even more than the previous day?

6. Will I ever drop this negative view of the BBS?

7. Why was meeting Mal in his review answers thread the biggest mistake I ever made?

8. Why was going to the BBS the most fatal mistake on Newgrounds?

9. Why do I get more bullshit than any other typical user?

10. Would I be better off if I was like the average user?

11. Is the strong refusal to leave a post on the BBS a good idea, or a bad idea? Would I have still been better off if I continued posting? (Even if it was just a little?) Or did I make the good choice of not at all posting?

12. Most importantly, why do I still come here despite all this crap?

By the end of 2010 I hope to have answered these critical questions.